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Title: Fragments from The Journal of a Solitary Man

Author: Nathaniel Hawthorne


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THE DOLIVER ROMANCE AND OTHER PIECES

TALES AND SKETCHES

By Nathaniel Hawthorne




FRAGMENTS FROM THE JOURNAL OF A SOLITARY MAN






I.  


My poor friend Oberon[See the sketch or story entitled The Devil  in Manuscript, in The Snow-Image, and other Twice-Told Tales.]for  let me be allowed to distinguish him by so quaint a namesleeps with  the silent ages. He died calmly. Though his disease was pulmonary, his  life did not flicker out like a wasted lamp, sometimes shooting up into a  strange temporary brightness; but the tide of being ebbed away, and the  noon of his existence waned till, in the simple phraseology of Scripture,  he was not. The last words he said to me were, Burn my papers,all  that you can find in yonder escritoire; for I fear there are some there  which you may be betrayed into publishing. I have published enough; as for  the old disconnected journal in your possession But here my poor  friend was checked in his utterance by that same hollow cough which would  never let him alone. So he coughed himself tired, and sank to slumber. I  watched from that midnight hour till high noon on the morrow for his  waking. The chamber was dark; till, longing for light, I opened the  window-shutter, and the broad day looked in on the marble features of the  dead.  

I religiously obeyed his instructions with regard to the papers in the  escritoire, and burned them in a heap without looking into one, though  sorely tempted. But the old journal I kept. Perhaps in strict conscience I  ought also to have burned that; but casting my eye over some half-torn  leaves the other day, I could not resist an impulse to give some fragments  of it to the public. To do this satisfactorily, I am obliged to twist this  thread, so as to string together into a semblance of order my Oberons  random pearls.  

If anybody that holds any commerce with his fellowmen can be called  solitary, Oberon was a solitary man. He lived in a small village at some  distance from the metropolis, and never came up to the city except once in  three months for the purpose of looking into a bookstore, and of spending  two hours and a half with me. In that space of time I would tell him all  that I could remember of interest which had occurred in the interim of his  visits. He would join very heartily in the conversation; but as soon as  the time of his usual tarrying had elapsed, he would take up his hat and  depart. He was unequivocally the most original person I ever knew. His  style of composition was very charming. No tales that have ever appeared  in our popular journals have been so generally admired as his. But a  sadness was on his spirit; and this, added to the shrinking sensitiveness  of his nature, rendered him not misanthropic, but singularly averse to  social intercourse. Of the disease, which was slowly sapping the springs  of his life, he first became fully conscious after one of those long  abstractions in which he was wont to indulge. It is remarkable, however,  that his first idea of this sort, instead of deepening his spirit with a  more melancholy hue, restored him to a more natural state of mind.  

He had evidently cherished a secret hope that some impulse would at length  be given him, or that he would muster sufficient energy of will to return  into the world, and act a wiser and happier part than his former one. But  life never called the dreamer forth; it was Death that whispered him. It  is to be regretted that this portion of his old journal contains so few  passages relative to this interesting period; since the little which he  has recorded, though melancholy enough, breathes the gentleness of a  spirit newly restored to communion with its kind. If there be anything  bitter in the following reflections, its source is in human sympathy, and  its sole object is himself.  

It is hard to die without ones happiness; to none more so than myself,  whose early resolution it had been to partake largely of the joys of life,  but never to be burdened with its cares. Vain philosophy! The very  hardships of the poorest laborer, whose whole existence seems one long  toil, has something preferable to my best pleasures.  

Merely skimming the surface of life, I know nothing, by my own  experience, of its deep and warm realities. I have achieved none of those  objects which the instinct of mankind especially prompts them to pursue,  and the accomplishment of which must therefore beget a native  satisfaction. The truly wise, after all their speculations, will be led  into the common path, and, in homage to the human nature that pervades  them, will gather gold, and till the earth, and set out trees, and build a  house. But I have scorned such wisdom. I have rejected, also, the settled,  sober, careful gladness of a man by his own fireside, with those around  him whose welfare is committed to his trust and all their guidance to his  fond authority. Without influence among serious affairs, my footsteps were  not imprinted on the earth, but lost in air; and I shall leave no son to  inherit my share of life, with a better sense of its privileges and  duties, when his father should vanish like a bubble; so that few mortals,  even the humblest and the weakest, have been such ineffectual shadows in  the world, or die so utterly as I must. Even a young mans bliss has not  been mine. With a thousand vagrant fantasies, I have never truly loved,  and perhaps shall be doomed to loneliness throughout the eternal future,  because, here on earth, my soul has never married itself to the soul of  woman.  

Such are the repinings of one who feels, too late, that the sympathies of  his nature have avenged themselves upon him. They have prostrated, with a  joyless life and the prospect of a reluctant death, my selfish purpose to  keep aloof from mortal disquietudes, and be a pleasant idler among  care-stricken and laborious men. I have other regrets, too, savoring more  of my old spirit. The time has been when I meant to visit every region of  the earth, except the poles and Central Africa. I had a strange longing to  see the Pyramids. To Persia and Arabia, and all the gorgeous East, I owed  a pilgrimage for the sake of their magic tales. And England, the land of  my ancestors! Once I had fancied that my sleep would not be quiet in the  grave unless I should return, as it were, to my home of past ages, and see  the very cities, and castles, and battle-fields of history, and stand  within the holy gloom of its cathedrals, and kneel at the shrines of its  immortal poets, there asserting myself their hereditary countryman. This  feeling lay among the deepest in my heart. Yet, with this homesickness for  the father-land, and all these plans of remote travel,which I yet  believe that my peculiar instinct impelled me to form, and upbraided me  for not accomplishing,the utmost limit of my wanderings has been  little more than six hundred miles from my native village. Thus, in  whatever way I consider my life, or what must be termed such, I cannot  feel as if I had lived at all.  

I am possessed, also, with the thought that I have never yet discovered  the real secret of my powers; that there has been a mighty treasure within  my reach, a mine of gold beneath my feet, worthless because I have never  known how to seek for it; and for want of perhaps one fortunate idea, I am  to die  

Unwept, unhonored, and unsung.
 

Once, amid the troubled and tumultuous enjoyment of my life, there was a  dreamy thought that haunted me, the terrible necessity imposed on mortals  to grow old, or die. I could not bear the idea of losing one youthful  grace. True, I saw other men, who had once been young and now were old,  enduring their age with equanimity, because each year reconciled them to  its own added weight. But for myself, I felt that age would be not less  miserable, creeping upon me slowly, than if it fell at once. I sometimes  looked in the glass, and endeavored to fancy my cheeks yellow and  interlaced with furrows, my forehead wrinkled deeply across, the top of my  head bald and polished, my eyebrows and side-locks iron gray, and a grisly  beard sprouting on my chin. Shuddering at the picture, I changed it for  the dead face of a young mail, with dark locks clustering heavily round  its pale beauty, which would decay, indeed, but not with years, nor in the  sight of men. The latter visage shocked me least.  

Such a repugnance to the hard conditions of long life is common to all  sensitive and thoughtful men, who minister to the luxury, the refinements,  the gayety and lightsomeness, to anything, in short, but the real  necessities of their fellow-creatures. He who has a part in the serious  business of life, though it be only as a shoemaker, feels himself equally  respectable in youth and in age, and therefore is content to live and look  forward to wrinkles and decrepitude in their due season. It is far  otherwise with the busy idlers of the world. I was particularly liable to  this torment, being a meditative person in spite of my levity. The truth  could not be concealed, nor the contemplation of it avoided. With deep  inquietude I became aware that what was graceful now, and seemed  appropriate enough to my age of flowers, would be ridiculous in middle  life; and that the world, so indulgent to the fantastic youth, would scorn  the bearded than, still telling love-tales, loftily ambitious of a  maidens tears, and squeezing out, as it were, with his brawny strength,  the essence of roses. And in his old age the sweet lyrics of Anacreon made  the girls laugh at his white hairs the more. With such sentiments,  conscious that my part in the drama of life was fit only for a youthful  performer, I nourished a regretful desire to be summoned early from the  scene. I set a limit to myself, the age of twenty-five, few years indeed,  but too many to be thrown away. Scarcely had I thus fixed the term of my  mortal pilgrimage, than the thought grew into a presentiment that, when  the space should be completed, the world would have one butterfly the  less, by my far flight.  

O, how fond I was of life, even while allotting, as my proper destiny, an  early death! I loved the world, its cities, its villages, its grassy  roadsides, its wild forests, its quiet scenes, its gay, warm, enlivening  bustle; in every aspect, I loved the world so long as I could behold it  with young eyes and dance through it with a young heart. The earth had  been made so beautiful, that I longed for no brighter sphere, but only an  ever-youthful eternity in this. I clung to earth as if my beginning and  ending were to be there, unable to imagine any but an earthly happiness,  and choosing such, with all its imperfections, rather than perfect bliss  which might be alien from it. Alas! I had not wet known that weariness by  which the soul proves itself ethereal.  

Turning over the old journal, I open, by chance, upon a passage which  affords a signal instance of the morbid fancies to which Oberon frequently  yielded himself. Dreams like the following were probably engendered by the  deep gloom sometimes thrown over his mind by his reflections on death.  

I dreamed that one bright forenoon I was walking through Broadway, and  seeking to cheer myself with the warm and busy life of that far-famed  promenade. Here a coach thundered over the pavement, and there an unwieldy  omnibus, with spruce gigs rattling past, and horsemen prancing through all  the bustle. On the sidewalk people were looking at the rich display of  goods, the plate and jewelry, or the latest caricature ill the  booksellers windows; while fair ladies and whiskered gentlemen tripped  gayly along, nodding mutual recognitions, or shrinking from some rough  countryman or sturdy laborer whose contact might have ruffled their  finery. I found myself in this animated scene, with a dim and misty idea  that it was not my proper place, or that I had ventured into the crowd  with some singularity of dress or aspect which made me ridiculous. Walking  in the sunshine, I was yet cold as death. By degrees, too, I perceived  myself the object of universal attention, and, as it seemed, of horror and  affright. Every face grew pale; the laugh was hushed, and the voices died  away in broken syllables; the people in the shops crowded to the doors  with a ghastly stare, and the passengers oil all sides fled as from an  embodied pestilence. The horses reared and snorted. An old beggar-woman  sat before St. Pauls Church, with her withered palm stretched out to all,  but drew it back from me, and pointed to the graves and monuments in that  populous churchyard. Three lovely girls whom I had formerly known, ran  shrieking across the street. A personage in black, whom I was about to  overtake, suddenly turned his head and showed the features of a long-lost  friend. He gave me a look of horror and was gone.  

I passed not one step farther, but threw my eyes on a looking-glass which  stood deep within the nearest shop. At first glimpse of my own figure I  awoke, with a horrible sensation of self-terror and self-loathing. No  wonder that the affrighted city fled! I had been promenading Broadway in  my shroud!  

I should be doing injustice to my friends memory, were I to publish other  extracts even nearer to insanity than this, front the scarcely legible  papers before me. I gather from themfor I do not remember that he  ever related to me the circumstancesthat he once made a journey,  chiefly on foot, to Niagara. Some conduct of the friends among whom he  resided in his native village was constructed by him into oppression.  These were the friends to whose care he had been committed by his parents,  who died when Oberon was about twelve years of age. Though he had always  been treated by them with the most uniform kindness, and though a favorite  among the people of the village rather on account of the sympathy which  they felt in his situation than from any merit of his own, such was the  waywardness of his temper, that on a slight provocation he ran away from  the home that sheltered him, expressing openly his determination to die  sooner than return to the detested spot. A severe illness overtook him  after he had been absent about four months. While ill, he felt how  unsoothing were the kindest looks and tones of strangers. He rose from his  sick-bed a better man, and determined upon a speedy self-atonement by  returning to his native town. There he lived, solitary and sad, but  forgiven and cherished by his friends, till the day he died. That part of  the journal which contained a description of this journey is mostly  destroyed. Here and there is a fragment. I cannot select, for the pages  are very scanty; but I do not withhold the following fragments, because  they indicate a better and more cheerful frame of mind than the foregoing.  

On reaching the ferry-house, a rude structure of boards at the foot of  the cliff, I found several of those wretches devoid of poetry, and lost  some of my own poetry by contact with them. The hut was crowded by a party  of provincials,a simple and merry set, who had spent the afternoon  fishing near the Falls, and were bartering black and white bass and eels  for the ferrymans whiskey. A greyhound and three spaniels, brutes of much  more grace and decorous demeanor than their masters, sat at the door. A  few yards off, yet wholly unnoticed by the dogs, was a beautiful fox,  whose countenance betokened all the sagacity attributed to him in ancient  fable. He had a comfortable bed of straw in an old barrel, whither he  retreated, flourishing his bushy tail as I made a step towards him, but  soon came forth and surveyed me with a keen and intelligent eye. The  Canadians bartered their fish and drank their whiskey, and were loquacious  on trifling subjects, and merry at simple jests, with as little regard to  the scenery as they could have to the flattest part of the Grand Canal.  Nor was I entitled to despise them; for I amused myself with all those  foolish matters of fishermen, and dogs, and fox, just as if Sublimity and  Beauty were not married at that place and moment; as if their nuptial band  were not the brightest of all rainbows on the opposite shore; as if the  gray precipice were not frowning above my head and Niagara thundering  around me.  

The grim ferryman, a black-whiskered giant, half drunk withal, now thrust  the Canadians by main force out of his door, launched a boat, and bade me  sit in the stern-sheets. Where we crossed the river was white with foam,  yet did not offer much resistance to a straight passage, which brought us  close to the outer edge of the American falls. The rainbow vanished as we  neared its misty base, and when I leaped ashore, the sun had left all  Niagara in shadow.  

A sound of merriment, sweet voices and girlish laughter, came dancing  through the solemn roar of waters. In old times, when the French, and  afterwards the English, held garrisons near Niagara, it used to be deemed  a feat worthy of a soldier, a frontier man, or an Indian, to cross the  rapids to Goat Island. As the country became less rude and warlike, a long  space intervened, in which it was but half believed, by a faint and  doubtful tradition, that mortal foot bad never trod this wild spot of  precipice and forest clinging between two cataracts. The island is no  longer a tangled forest, but a grove of stately trees, with grassy  intervals about their roots and woodland paths among their trunks.  

There was neither soldier nor Indian here now, but a vision of three  lovely girls, running brief races through the broken sunshine of the  grove, hiding behind the trees, and pelting each other with the cones of  the pine. When their sport had brought them near me, it so happened that  one of the party ran up and shook me by the band,a greeting which I  heartily returned, and would have done the same had it been tenderer. I  had known this wild little black-eyed lass in my youth and her childhood,  before I had commenced my rambles.  

We met on terms of freedom and kindness, which elder ladies might have  thought unsuitable with a gentleman of my description. When I alluded to  the two fair strangers, she shouted after them by their Christian names,  at which summons, with grave dignity, they drew near, and honored me with  a distant courtesy. They were from the upper part of Vermont. Whether  sisters, or cousins, or at all related to each other, I cannot tell; but  they are planted in my memory like two twin roses on one stem, with the  fresh dew in both their bosoms; and when I would have pure and pleasant  thoughts, I think of them. Neither of them could have seen seventeen  years. They both were of a height, and that a moderate one. The rose-bloom  of their cheeks could hardly be called bright in her who was the rosiest,  nor faint, though a shade less deep, in her companion. Both had delicate  eyebrows, not strongly defined, yet somewhat darker than their hair; both  had small sweet mouths, maiden mouths, of not so warns and deep a tint as  ruby, but only red as the reddest rose; each had those gems, the rarest,  the most precious, a pair of clear, soft bright blue eyes. Their style of  dress was similar; one had on a black silk gown, with a stomacher of  velvet, and scalloped cuffs of the same from the wrist to the elbow; the  other wore cuffs and stomacher of the like pattern and material, over a  gown of crimson silk. The dress was rather heavy for their slight figures,  but suited to September. They and the darker beauty all carried their  straw bonnets in their hands.  

I cannot better conclude these fragments than with poor Oberons  description of his return to his native village after his slow recovery  from his illness. How beautifully does he express his penitential  emotions! A beautiful moral may be indeed drawn from the early death of a  sensitive recluse, who had shunned the ordinary avenues of distinction,  and with splendid abilities sank to rest into an early grave, almost  unknown to mankind, and without any record save what my pen hastily leaves  upon these tear-blotted pages.  





II.  

MY HOME RETURN.  


When the stage-coach had gained the summit of the hill, I alighted to  perform the small remainder of my journey on foot. There had not been a  more delicious afternoon than this in all the train of summer, the air  being a sunny perfume, made up of balm and warmth, and gentle brightness.  The oak and walnut trees over my head retained their deep masses of  foliage, and the grass, though for months the pasturage of stray cattle,  had been revived with the freshness of early June by the autumnal rains of  the preceding week. The garb of autumn, indeed, resembled that of spring.  Dandelions and butterflies were sprinkled along the roadside like drops of  brightest gold in greenest grass, and a star-shaped little flower of blue,  with a golden centre. In a rocky spot, and rooted under the stone walk,  there was one wild rose-bush bearing three roses very faintly tinted, but  blessed with a spicy fragrance. The same tokens would have announced that  the year was brightening into the glow of summer. There were violets too,  though few and pale ones. But the breath of September was diffused through  the mild air, and became perceptible, too thrillingly for my enfeebled  frame, whenever a little breeze shook out the latent coolness.  

I was standing on the hill at the entrance of my native village, whence I  had looked back to bid farewell, and forward to the pale mist-bow that  overarched my path, and was the omen of my fortunes. How I had  misinterpreted that augury, the ghost of hope, with none of hopes bright  hues! Nor could I deem that all its portents were yet accomplished, though  from the same western sky the declining sun shone brightly in my face. But  I was calm and not depressed. Turning to the village, so dim and  dream-like at my last view, I saw the white houses and brick stores, the  intermingled trees, the footpaths with their wide borders of grass, and  the dusty road between; all a picture of peaceful gladness in the  sunshine.  

Why have I never loved my home before? thought I, as my spirit reposed  itself on the quiet beauty of the scene.  

On the side of the opposite hill was the graveyard, sloping towards the  farther extremity of the village. The sun shone as cheerfully there as on  the abodes of the living, and showed all the little hillocks and the  burial-stones, white marble or slate, and here and there a tomb, with the  pleasant grass about them all. A single tree was tinged with glory from  the west, and threw a pensive shade behind. Not far from where it fell was  the tomb of my parents, whom I had hardly thought of in bidding adieu to  the village, but had remembered them more faithfully among the feelings  that drew me homeward. At my departure their tomb had been hidden in the  morning mist. Beholding it in the sunshine now, I felt a sensation through  my frame as if a breeze had thrown the coolness of September over me,  though not a leaf was stirred, nor did the thistle-down take flight. Was I  to roam no more through this beautiful world, but only to the other end of  the village? Then let me lie down near my parents, but not with them,  because I love a green grave better than a tomb.  

Moving slowly forward, I heard shouts and laughter, and perceived a  considerable throng of people, who came from behind the meeting-house and  made a stand in front of it. Thither all the idlers in the village were  congregated to witness the exercises of the engine company, this being the  afternoon of their monthly practice. They deluged the roof of the  meeting-house, till the water fell from the eaves in a broad cascade; then  the stream beat against the dusty windows like a thunder-storm; and  sometimes they flung it up beside the steeple, sparkling in an ascending  shower about the weathercock. For varietys sake the engineer made it  undulate horizontally, like a great serpent flying over the earth. As his  last effort, being roguishly inclined, he seemed to take aim at the sky,  falling short rather of which, down came the fluid, transformed to drops  of silver, on the thickest crowd of the spectators. Then ensued a  prodigious rout and mirthful uproar, with no little wrath of the surly  ones, whom this is an infallible method of distinguishing. The joke  afforded infinite amusement to the ladies at the windows and some old  people under the hay-scales. I also laughed at a distance, and was glad to  find myself susceptible, as of old, to the simple mirth of such a scene.  

But the thoughts that it excited were not all mirthful. I had witnessed  hundreds of such spectacles in my youth, and one precisely similar only a  few days before my departure. And now, the aspect of the village being the  same, and the crowd composed of my old acquaintances, I could hardly  realize that years had passed, or even months, or that the very drops of  water were not falling at this moment, which had been flung up then. But I  pressed the conviction home, that, brief as the time appeared, it had been  long enough for me to wander away and return again, with my fate  accomplished, and little more hope in this world. The last throb of an  adventurous and wayward spirit kept me from repining. I felt as if it were  better, or not worse, to have compressed my enjoyments and sufferings into  a few wild years, and then to rest myself in an early grave, than to have  chosen the untroubled and ungladdened course of the crowd before me, whose  days were all alike, and a long lifetime like each day. But the sentiment  startled me. For a moment I doubted whether my dear-bought wisdom were  anything but the incapacity to pursue fresh follies, and whether, if  health and strength could be restored that night, I should be found in the  village after to-morrows dawn.  

Among other novelties, I had noticed that the tavern was now designated  as a Temperance House, in letters extending across the whole front, with a  smaller sign promising Hot Coffee at all hours, and Spruce Beer to lodgers  gratis. There were few new buildings, except a Methodist chapel and a  printing-office, with a bookstore in the lower story. The golden mortar  still ornamented the apothecarys door, nor had the Indian Chief, with his  gilded tobacco stalk, been relieved from doing sentinels duty before  Dominicus Pikes grocery. The gorgeous silks, though of later patterns,  were still flaunting like a banner in front of Mr. Nightingales dry-goods  store. Some of the signs introduced me to strangers, whose predecessors  had failed, or emigrated to the West, or removed merely to the other end  of the village, transferring their names from the sign-boards to slabs of  marble or slate. But, on the whole, death and vicissitude had done very  little. There were old men, scattered about the street, who had been old  in my earliest reminiscences; and, as if their venerable forms were  permanent parts of the creation, they appeared to be hale and hearty old  men yet. The less elderly were more altered, having generally contracted a  stoop, with hair wofully thinned and whitened. Some I could hardly  recognize; at my last glance they had been boys and girls, but were young  men and women when I looked again; and there were happy little things too,  rolling about on the grass, whom God had made since my departure.  

But now, in my lingering course I had descended the bill, and began to  consider, painfully enough, how I should meet my townspeople, and what  reception they would give me. Of many an evil prophecy, doubtless, had I  been the subject. And would they salute me with a roar of triumph or a low  hiss of scorn, on beholding their worst anticipations more than  accomplished?  

No, said I, they will not triumph over me. And should they ask the  cause of my return, I will tell f hem that a man may go far and tarry long  away, if his health be good and his hopes high; but that when flesh and  spirit begin to fail, he remembers his birthplace and the old  burial-ground, and hears a voice calling him to cone home to his father  and mother. They will know, by my wasted frame and feeble step, that I  have heard the summons and obeyed. And, the first greetings over, they  will let me walk among them unnoticed, and linger in the sunshine while I  may, and steal into my grave in peace. 

With these reflections I looked kindly at the crowd, and drew off my  glove, ready to give my hand to the first that should put forth his. It  occurred to me, also, that some youth among them, now at the crisis of his  fate, might have felt his bosom thrill at my example, and be emulous of my  wild life and worthless fame. But I would save him.  

He shall be taught, said I, by my life, and by my death, that the  world is a sad one for him who shrinks from its sober duties. My  experience shall warn him to adopt some great and serious aim, such as  manhood will cling to, that he may not feel himself, too late, a cumberer  of this overladen earth, but a man among men. I will beseech him not to  follow an eccentric path, nor, by stepping aside from the highway of human  affairs, to relinquish his claim upon human sympathy. And often, as a text  of deep and varied meaning, I will remind him that he is an American. 

By this time I had drawn near the meeting-house, and perceived that the  crowd were beginning to recognize me.  




These are the last words traced by his hand. Has not so chastened a spirit  found true communion with the pure in Heaven? Until of late, I never  could believe that I was seriously ill: the past, I thought, could not  extend its misery beyond itself; life was restored to me, and should not  be missed again. I had day-dreams even of wedded happiness. Still, as the  days wear on, a faintness creeps through my frame and spirit, recalling  the consciousness that a very old man might as well nourish hope and young  desire as I at twenty-four. Yet the consciousness of my situation does not  always make me sad. Sometimes I look upon the world with a quiet interest,  because it cannot, concern me personally, and a loving one for the same  reason, because nothing selfish can interfere with the sense of  brotherhood. Soon to be all spirit, I have already a spiritual sense of  human nature, and see deeply into the hearts of mankind, discovering what  is hidden from the wisest. The loves of young men and virgins are known to  me, before the first kiss, before the whispered word, with the birth of  the first sigh. My glance comprehends the crowd, and penetrates the breast  of the solitary man. I think better of the world than formerly, more  generously of its virtues, more mercifully of its faults, with a higher  estimate of its present happiness, and brighter hopes of its destiny. My  mind has put forth a second crop of blossoms, as the trees do in the  Indian summer. No winter will destroy their beauty, for they are fanned by  the breeze and freshened by the shower that breathes and falls in the  gardens of Paradise!  











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